Away To Me

Hopkins

Have you watched this show yet? It airs on Thursdays at 10pm on ABC. You MUST watch the show. It is excellent. I must say the episode 2 weeks ago about the heart transplant needed for the two year old, was extremely upsetting to me. One of the doctors on the team said something to the effect of, "we might just need to let him die". I balled my eyes out, had to pause the TV and I was so angry I swore I wouldn't watch the show again. But I calmed down and finished and was glad for the ending.

You can go to the web site to watch the older episodes.

Symptoms are back

I wished them back I suppose. I felt so good and non-pregnant yesterday that it scared me badly. Today, no worries. Frankly I'm feeling cruddy and loving it. The only thing I don't love is the constipation which is a bear today. The queasy feeling, super tiredness, sore boobs, heightened sense of smell, the gas ( ya those last two are fun together) the constant peeing and other small differences truly are welcoming and wanted. My darling Jake is getting too much TV time on days like today, but that isn't the end of the world.

I've been really worried about how this is all going to work out. Twins is just overwhelming when I think about simple tasks like going to the market. I mean seriously, I wonder how I'll be able to manage an almost 3-year-old and 2 newborns at the same time if I have to go someplace like the market. But I keep reminding myself it will all work out. 

Oh in other news, the new fence to block Jake from the garden is going in on Monday. I'm so excited. This will help me immensely! 

HUGE Earthquake here

5.8  epicenter about 40 miles north of us. (Same city as our old home). I haven't felt one this big ever. I guess I've been in bigger ones but those happened when I was sleeping. This one actually scared me and I'm not scared easily by earthquakes. I actually think they are sort of fun.

WOW, this one shook hard. Even Jake got scared. I haven't felt an aftershock yet. Crazy!

I feel great today - which freaks me out!

Today I have more energy than I've had in weeks. I'm also less queasy. All of this should be good news, instead it sort of freaks me out. Yesterday I thought my tummy was a bit flatter, but by evening I realized it was probably the same if not bigger. Sure a lot of it is the gas, which has reached record levels. Seriously, I think they should put a meter on my butt to calculate how much methane is exiting me. I could probably generate enough to fuel a small city. Or maybe I'm in fact part of the cause for the hole in the ozone layer. If you need wallpaper removed, let me know, my fee is cheap and my gas is guaranteed to melt the old wallpaper off the walls.

On Sunday I had a huge surge of hormones and I felt worse than I have felt. My boobs were sore, my energy level was nil, the gas, the queasy feeling if I didn't eat, etc. Now today my only symptom is my sense of smell, which is through the roof! I cleaned out the fridge, I opened all the windows in the house first thing this morning to get some fresh air in. It has seemed to work.

That's the latest and greatest!

Oh and a big Happy 40th to my dear friend Jill today!

Turn On's & Turn Off's

• Turn On: Sleep Turn Off: Insomnia
• Turn On: Food (small amounts often)  Turn Off: Nausea (if I don't eat every 2 or 3 hours)
• Turn On: Rubbing my belly Turn Off: Realizing it's bloat and fat that I'm rubbing
• Turn On: 1 more appoint. w/ my RE Turn Off: Not knowing which OB to choose
• Turn On: Loving Supportive blog readers Turn Off: Reading blogs or messages that are downers
• Turn On: Being Pregnant Turn Off: Worry about how this is all going to work

Things are great, life is good. I am still in a state of euphoria. Coupled with waves of "what the hell is going to happen when these babies come/gosh I hope both these babies come". Other than normal first trimester side effects everything is going well. I have been able to avoid true morning sickness so far. For me, eating is the key. I get nauseous if I have an empty stomach. First thing in the morning I drink a small protein shake and that seems to make me feel better within in 20 mins. 

My family continues to be super excited. We had dinner on Saturday night with my brother and his girlfriend and it was great to see how giddy my brother is. My dad is the same way. Every time I talk to him he's told someone else the news. Part of me wants to tell him to not tell anyone in case something goes wrong, but I've decided that if something does go wrong, we will deal with it then. I'm not going to worry about the what if's. I have no control over them. Maybe I'm making a mistake about this, but it will be my mistake to make and I'd appreciate it if any blog readers just keep any negative opinions about this out of my comments. No offense, I know you will mean well, but for me, right now I'm only trying to stay on a positive and happy note and stay in "lala land". 

Because there are some other changes going on in our personal  lives that I can't quite share with you yet I'm a bit overwhelmed about the changes in our lives over the course of the next 6-10 months. I promise that as soon as I can share info, I will. Hopefully the end of next week I can share. Fingers crossed!

So that is the latest and greatest. 

 

7 Weeks today

7 weeks along today and looking like some people do at six months. Eek I'm huge! HUGE and bloated! And with the layer of fat on top of the bloat and distention I look darn right pregnant.

And our babies are the size of blueberries! 

OH My this is funny.

Do not watch this video at work or around children. It isn't terrible, but it is not appropriate for work. Totally funny though! 

First IVF Baby

She turned 30! Here's the story. 

Much Better

I woke up in a much better mood this morning. Sorry for yesterday's rant. I guess it all hit me at once and the cyber world didn't help my mood. But today is a new day and despite waking up at 4:30 startled from a nightmare I woke up a lot less anxious and irritable. 

Not much planned for the day. I will be cleaning my house. I swear it looks like a dog hair bomb went off in it. We have worked on the side yard securing it for Jake over the past 3 days and I think I can finally turn him loose out there tomorrow. That will allow me time to actually clean. I'll take pics of the changes we had to make in order to "Jake Proof" it. Lots and lots of locks were involved. 

I'm seriously annoyed by nearly everyone today

It could just be hormones, or it could be that people are just rude or don't think. 

There was a thread entitled "Circumcision". Then inside the question was, "when do they do it". There were plenty of responses to when these people had their sons' circumcised. I simply wrote, "We opted not to. Not preaching to you at all, but do your research" And then to make sure it was all good, I had little wink emotiocon inserted.

The next f'ing poster wrote, "This isn't a discussion about contemplating circumcision. She's obviously already made the decision to do it and was asking when it is typically done." 

So because I'm already completely annoyed with people I wrote: "You obviously didn't read my post clearly when I said, NOT preaching to you." Yes, I know bitchy but I don't care. Maybe she didn't know she had options in this regard. I wasn't lecturing, just stating what we did and telling her to do her research. Maybe she has and that is fine if that is her decision for her family. I make no judgments on that. 

I am avoiding blogs that are dealing with miscarriage or other subjects that I just don't need to know about. Unless there is something specific that I NEED TO KNOW in order to avoid disaster, please don't tell me about it. This process is nerve wracking enough. I don't need any warnings about things out of my hands. 

Hopefully I'll have a nicer, more happy post later in the day. Geeze I'm not liking the way I feel today. CRABBY.