Away To Me

I made myself sick with worry

My darling hubby is out of surgery and in his room. I called and spoke to the nurses station and they said he had just gotten to the room not 5 mins before. The nurse I spoke with hadn't spoken with him yet, but said his eyes were open and another nurse was with him.

I've had the worse headache all afternoon. It started about the time I dropped him off at the hospital and it's gotten worse until about 20 mins ago when I called and talked to the nurse. I cant' believe the headache left almost the moment I found out he is okay.  I took 2 tylenol and tried to nap with Jake after we got home from dropping hubby off but it did nothing for my headache and my tummy has been a wreck. 

I found out what room he is in and I'll call him later tonight. I guess he gets out at 11am tomorrow. I can't wait to go pick him up. Tonight I'm going to clean and organize his closet and put clean sheets on the bed and fluff his pillows and make sure he is as comfortable as possible when he gets home. I've purchased all the foods he is allowed to have.

I really can't wait to talk to him! 

Hubby

Today my darling hubby goes in for surgery. I know it is only one night in the hospital but still, I worry. He's never been under anesthesia before so that is always a concern. I think he'll handle anesthesia well, his family members never had a problem with it. He also isn't overly sensitive to drugs. 

I couldn't get a sitter so I don't know if I'll be staying at the hospital while he is having surgery or not. He'll have to be there for 2 hours prior to his surgery and then the surgery takes about an hour and then an hour to recover so 4 hours with Jake in a hospital, during nap time no less is a lot to ask of our little man. The hospital is about an hour from our home. I could take him, come back home and then go back later in the evening to visit him. But I know how it is when you have surgery, you just want to sleep. 

Hubby says not to worry at all. To drop him off and go. He continues to remind me that back in December he dropped me off for a surgery I had in a foreign country. But the difference is that it was me that was okay with it. I wanted it that way cause I didn't want Jake to be away from home over night and have to be bored in a hotel room for 36 hours. This time it's my hubby who is going and it is different. I wasn't worried about myself, but I worry about him.

I'll pick him up sometime Thursday morning (probably late morning) and he'll be to work by Monday. He can't believe his company is actually going to have him work his two week notice. I guess they really do trust and like him. His boss is coming in on Tuesday to do a wrap up interview. He's thinking at that point they may cut him, or they may keep him on till Friday. He starts his new job on Sept 1. 

I'm sure all will be fine with his surgery. I like and trust his surgeon and I know he'll feel a lot better once he gets through this. He's getting an elective surgery (sort of elective) done at the same time he is getting his hernia fixed. He's not telling his family which I'm sure will put me in the middle at a later time. He's none to happy with his family right now, but that's all for another post. I'll keep you updated.

Comment Of the day

"I hope you don't gain too much weight I know how hard it is for you to loose it".That's nice I've tried to get pregnant for 4 1/2 years.... do you think I give a rat's arse about my weight being hard to loose? Idiot! You can probably guess who that quote is from.

With that I'm going to turn my head phones on and clean my house like a mad woman. 

Some news around here

Remember in the past month or so I've hinted at some big news that I would like to share but couldn't. Well, now I can. 

My husband quit his job today. I know it isn't earth shattering news for anyone but us, but it is a HUGE change for us. And being pregnant, makes it a bit more nerve wracking for me. (Have I mentioned I've been extremely emotional lately?)

My darling hubby has been really hating his job and the treatment he has been receiving for well over a year. He is one of the most giving employees a company could ask for. Seriously, the guy gives 100% all the time. He is really liked by his coworkers and his clients and I could feel his frustration grow as the big company he works for continued to become more and more corporate. They started to make changes that made not only hubby resentful, but his clients frustrated. Then they cut commissions but raised expectations, tell me on what planet does that make sense? Here employee, work harder - make less.  Not a good model for business.

A few months back hubby mentioned a new client needing a general manager. It was appealing to hubby and he mentioned to said employer that he would be interested in that position as he was planning on leaving his current employment sometime in the near future. The new employer made hubby and offer that just couldn't be refused. Things were finalized yesterday and notice was given today.

Giving notice went well. The old boss was excited for hubby's new opportunity and wished him lots of luck. I'm not surprised they were good about it, they like hubby and also, they need to get along with hubby as he is now the new GM of a major new dealership for them. But I'm glad they showed a lot of class and wished hubby the best.

Hubby has already taken all of next week off as he is having a surgery on Wednesday that requires one night's stay in the hospital and he wanted to take Monday and Tuesday off to get things organized. Not to mention, spending some time with Jake and I. I don't expect that they will have him come back the following week, but they may very well. He gave a two week notice. He may start the new job on the 25th or on Sept 1. 

The new job is a great opportunity for him and for us. There will be a LOT less travel. His drive time is about 15 minutes less (about an hour's commute) and he's got a lot more investment in the company on a personal level. There is lot's of incentive there to do well. I've met the new boss and his wife and kids. We had dinner with them last month and I liked both of them very much. They want to do dinner again this weekend and I'm excited about it. 

I must say it's been awhile since I've seen hubby this excited about work. He's been working on showroom layouts and new car specs and all sorts of things he finds incredibly exciting. 

For me, there is the relaxing aspect of having a happy content husband who will be home more. Then there is the anxiety of the income change (not less, just different structure). There is also the change in insurance companies (our pediatrician is not on this new insurance plan, but the OB and Hospital I want to give birth at is). I'm anxious about how his hours and work days will change. I think the change will be working on weekends more often and working more evenings. But he'll be home in the morning more. (Just the opposite of what I like). But that's okay, it will work out and the most important thing is my husband is happy. I hated having him hating his job so much. He's too good of an asset to company to take for granted.

I love him and I'm so proud of him. He's the best daddy in the world and the greatest husband a girl could ask for. He's truly one in a million!

9 weeks

I'm 9 weeks pregnant today. (assuming I'm still pregnant) Is it normal to always feel like this will be taken away or that I'm a fraud? I feel like I'm faking symptoms now. Odd. 

Anyway, today is 08/08/08. And my darling husband sent me a cute email today:

Happy 5 year, 5 month, 5 day Anniversary.

 

I love you….

Complaint moment

I'm sorry to complain on the happiest day of the year, but since I'm on bed rest (after giving up 18 eggs ) and I'm a bit bored, I figured I would share with you all my latest rant.

Yesterday I got an email from my mom that said: "Did you do the transfer today or is it tomorrow"? Firstly, it was egg retrieval and I had explained things to her on the phone when I spoke with her last Wednesday. By the way that was the first time she had called me since mid April! We have emailed and I spoke with her on her birthday in May, but that is the first time she had called me.

So I emailed her back, "Tomorrow, 5:30 am"

Her response, "Oh, good luck"

Now, I know she is who she is and she's never going to get the mother of the year award, but to be honest, I was really annoyed by her and her stupid email. I think it would have been better if she didn't ask at all. Then at least it would have been her forgetting, not that she wasn't concerned. Does that make any sense at all?

I guess no matter what I'll be annoyed by her. 

A phone call

I have to call my mom today. It is her birthday. Maybe I'll get the answering machine like I did on Mother's Day. 

Strange Response? Or hyper sensitive?

I emailed my mom the following:

Hey,

Do we have anyone in our family who has had Cystic Fibrosis? 

I tested positive as a carrier. It is a genetically inherited disease.

Deanna

This is what she emailed back:

Geez, not that I know of... As a carrier are you more apt to get it?  

How was your weekend in Las Vegas? 

Are "R" and "J"  doing and looking well?

Did they brag on the boy, of course!!!

Seriously, am I just hyper sensitive to everything she says or is that a weird reaction? I would have expected more questions about how this might effect creating a new baby or something else. I mean she's an intelligent woman who has written articles on genetically inherited diseases/conditions on horses. It's not like she's an ignorant person. She also knows we are starting IVF. I just thought it was extremely odd.

On another odd note. I still have not spoken with her on the phone in over 6 weeks. Hmm.....she talks to her mom daily on the phone. Odd, just odd. But parr for the course I suppose.

So please, chime in on this. Am I being to critical of her reaction?

Total Bitchfest post.

So the headaches continue. Yesterday my headache started around noon and continued through the evening, got worse in the middle of the night and is currently hanging out but more mellow at now 7am. So 5 of 8 days this cycle I've had a headache. I've been on PC bills 5 of the 8 days. Coincidence? I don't think so. But it is a small price to pay in the long run and I'm still hoping my body will level out and get used to the pills. I was still able to mow the lawns before it got really bad yesterday afternoon. So it could totally be worse.

In other bitchy news, my mom who I haven't spoken to on the phone for 3 weeks has started emailing me in the last few days. Mostly joke forwards but when I reply back to the joke with, "Oh lol that was a good one" or some other platitudinal comment, she'll ask questions like, "How was Jake's birthday party?" or "Did Jake start swim class?" So yesterday after one of her questions I sent her an email back saying that I had gone to the doctor for my LB (for those that read my PW blog - you know the issue) and that everything should be good now to start IVF. To which she replied, "what is IVF?" Now my mom may be rude and not mother of the year but I know she knows what IVF is, she is not stupid. So I typed back, "Invitro fertilization". I knew I had told her about our plans to move forward with IVF. I did so on the phone about 6 weeks ago, shortly before she quit talking to me after Jake's birthday party rescheduling ( that pissed her off- among other things so she quit calling and emailing).

So she emails me back, "Oh I had no idea you guys were doing that. Last I heard you thought Jake was enough". Not exactly a supportive statement and frankly very odd. Or am I overly sensitive? I mean I did tell her about it but she probably wasn't listening or forgot because she is so frickin self centered. I immediately responded via email with, "Yes, I did tell you, about six weeks ago. Jake is totally enough but we decided to try for more children". Geeze this woman makes me want to take a club to my computer some days.

So that's my bitchfest post. As my son says to nearly EVERYTHING that is done or not done, "All Done"!!

Mullet Sadness

Jake's uncle Tom finished second in the Mullet Madness contest.
So sad.
The second place prize was a Flowbee.