Away To Me

The Essentials for a 2yo Boy

Flashlight - Check

Dog - Check

New Race Car Bed - Check

After awhile the dog got incredibly bored. Oh and for the record, we don't like the dog on the bed, but it's so darn cute when he calls her up there, that we just let it go!

And of course, I can't end this post without a pic of the new hair cut. 

My Future Olympian!

TMI post and I don't care

I pooped. Yeah for me. It had been 3 days and I was so miserable. Nothing was working. Not extra water, fiber, stool softeners, even the prunes I bought and ate yesterday didn't kick in soon enough. I finally used a suppository and it was so worth it. I feel so much better. I don't even care that Jake got up at 5am screaming. Well, I care for him, but not upset for me. It gave me the chance to put him in bed with daddy while I sat on the toilet for 30 mins. They are currently watching Sesame street and evidently Elmo is a hit still!

Now that I can walk again (giggle giggle) I'm off to go take Large Marge to a herding practice about an hour from here. Jake will like the outing. He's a going out kind of kid and mom being layed up a bit is not fun in his book. Don't know what to expect. I'm just renting sheep and working her on a new field. Should be excellent learning for her. 

Blue Camo bandaid and Pink princess pull ups

Yesterday afternoon Jake had his official 2yo check up with the pediatrician. I never go in April around his birthday, it just seems like such a crappy thing to do to a kid. It's your birthday, now let's go get poked and prodded by a doc and take some vaccinations. 

I must brag on my boy, he was a stud and such a fun little guy in the doc's office. He played well while waiting in the waiting room, sharing toys with an older little girl. He smiled and waved at people and just charmed everyone. Once in the doc's office the nurse weighed and measured him and commented at least twice on "what a good 2yo he is"! Duh! 

Then we went in to see the doc. I love this new pediatrician. She was the one I got the last time we went in when he had a high temp. It was by accident that we got her as I didn't have an appointment that day. But I made sure to ask for her again. She was very complimentary about Jake's attitude and personality. She had no worries about his vocabulary and said don't worry about it, he sounds pretty much on track and you'll find he'll just all of a sudden explode with words. 

She also took me seriously when I pointed to a hernia type looking bump on his tummy. Nobody has thought it was a hernia so far. I have no idea what it is, but it bugs me that we don't know. She pushed on it and decided we had better get it ultra sounded. I also showed her this odd bump area on his lower back area that he has also had since birth and she said we should get that ultra sounded at the same time. I like thoroughness without overkill from a doc.

After the doc left the nurse came back with his one shot for the day. He was a champ! First when he saw the syringe he said, "Baby, yep, baby". The nurse gave me a funny look. I had to explain that I vaccinate lambs, "Baby sheep" and therefor he thinks all syringes are for Babies. She thought that was great and really smart. Then he got his shot in his thigh. He gave me a sort of odd look but he didn't cry, didn't even whimper. And after she put the bandaid on, he said, "all done". She gave him a high five and then he gave her a thumbs up. So fricking adorable!

With my pregnancy brain, I made the mistake of buying girl pull ups instead of boy pull ups. Now that's not such a big deal, except I bought them at Costco which means I have a ton of pink princess pull ups for my boy. So funny! He's got his blue camo bandaid from his shot and pink princess pull ups. But I think he pulls it off well. 

I call this pic "bam bam"

He has so many bruises on his legs! All boy, thank goodness the docs see this a lot. LOL

Yeah, my boy rocks the bandaid and princess pull ups!

I just love this face. He's just so beautiful to me!

Eyelashes

I want his eyelashes. 

Coloring outside the lines.

The kid has style.

He knows no boundaries!

And like a typical artist, he became moody and uncooperative after the first picture.  

He really needs a hair cut. LOL

Happy 4th of July

Please have a safe holiday and long weekend. Keep your pets safe and secure. The fireworks drive most pets crazy. Poor Juanita will be in the house all day. She can't handle the firecrackers outside, but does pretty well in the safety of our home. We will be heading to my dad's place down at the beach. I get to announce our pregnancy to my brother. I just can't wait to tell him!

Here is a little eye candy for you!

What a difference a year makes Jake, June 2008

Jake June 2007

Can't wipe the smile off my face!

Wow, I'm just so amazed by all the love and support I've received from both my friends and family. And when I say friends, I mean all of you and those in real life. It still blows me away how supportive and loving everyone has been. There has only been one blemish in the past 24 hours and that came last night from my MIL via her husband's remark. I won't get into the details but basically I can't figure out who is more stupid, him for making the remark or her for telling us about it. But, I'm not going to let idiotic statements rain on my pregnancy parade. We have to go to their place for a planned dinner on Saturday night. I might loose it! I'll probably update you all about the comment made at another time. 

I need to make a disclaimer about all my pregnancy joy. Trust me, I am over the moon, deliriously happy, but my happiness does not come without the knowledge that things could be different in a heartbeat. I will not dwell on the what if's and fret about something I have no ability to change. I will live in the moment and enjoy what I am so thankful for, Jake, my husband, my extended family, my friends and every single second of this pregnancy. In fact, I was so secure with things this morning, I didn't even pee on the extra pee stick. I didn't feel the need. 

Another point I want to make is despite the fact that we had more than four years of trying to conceive, multiple IUI's, and finally an IVF cycle, there are couples whose struggles are 100 times longer and more turbulent. They have endured miscarriages and many more BFN cycles than we have. I am not comparing pain to pain, we all have struggles, it all sucks. But I don't want anyone to think that I don't remember their struggles, that I don't appreciate what they are going through, living with and dealing with. Infertility is a club that non of want to belong to but we are all glad in some perverse way that we have had the opportunity to learn from and meet wonderful friends because of. 

I am so thankful for being infertile. Had I not struggled with this trial, I wouldn't be the person I am, I wouldn't be Jake's mommy. And no matter what happens with this pregnancy, being Jake's mommy has been the most rewarding job ever. I'm so in love with Jake. I can't imagine loving any child as much, but everyone assures me I'll love the next child just as much. I hope so, cause love like this is the best.

Finally, I'd like to show off the lovely flowers that hubby brought home to me yesterday. He is still freaked about the possibility of twins and I'm still teasing him about it. LOL

Scariest Moment of my life

This morning I had the scariest moment of my life. I went to check on Jake who was playing in the backyard and he wasn't in his normal two spots. Then I saw that the side yard gate, where they dogs have a run, was open and the bungee cords were not on the gate. We actually put two bungees on the gate to make sure Jake doesn't get into the side yard and more importantly into any dog poop. Well I assumed when I saw the gate open that he had gone in there and then into the door that leads to the garage. He loves the garage. LOVES it. But he wasn't in the garage. I started to panic. I ran back through the side yard into the back yard and onto the garden to look over the wall thinking maybe he went over the wall. It is a long drop on the other side and I just thought please let him be okay if he fell. 

No Jake. 

Then I run back across the yard, through the side yard, through the garage and into the house thinking he might have snuck in to the house and into our bedroom or bathroom. 

No Jake. 

By this point I'm fully upset, not crying, but screaming his name and starting to think about dialing 911. I ran to the yard again, looked down the other side yard carefully all the time screaming JAKE, JAKE. 

No Jake.

I ran back to the side yard and glanced at the big gate, that gate that goes to the driveway and such. This big side yard is for boat or RV parking. The gate is huge. Not climbable. There is a six foot long 4"x4" piece of wood up against the base to keep our little dog from crawling under. The gate is rod iron and solid. It was completely closed. I ran back into the house, back in to our room, back into the bathroom, I even opened the shower door. He's been known to explore the wet shower at times.

No Jake.

I ran back into the garage, yelled some more, flipped on the light. Finally I hit the garage door opener thinking if he isn't anywhere in the back, maybe some how he got in front. I had to do something! Sure enough as soon as I opened the garage door I hear him. He is on the driveway side of the big gate, by the trash cans. Happy as a clam. By this point I'm balling my eyes out, holding him so tight the poor kid probably felt short of breath.

I ran inside and just balled and held him. I haven't cried that hard in ages. I was shaking and then I got super nauseous. I didn't hurl but boy I came close. I called DH and screamed at him for not bungeeing the gate. Even though I'm not 100% sure, I'm 99% sure he went through the unbungeed side yard gate, and then pushed himself through the big gate, squeezing through. How he didn't get stuck or crushed is beyond me. I can't move it more than 3 inches and I can't do that as low as he would have had to do it. 

Poor hubby, he felt so bad and nothing he could say was going to calm me down so he just listened and said he was sorry. I think he was crying too. All told he was gone at least 2 mins. I have never ran so hard and fast and felt so panicked in my life. I feel completely exhausted now. 

I'm so thankful I found him safe and sound. If I wasn't trying to get or to be pregnant, I'd have a drink right now! 

Mmmm Pizza!

So far my the pictures of our blasts have been described as Antique Coins (love that) Smashed bottle caps (don't love that so much - figures it would be my mother who would say that.)

But the classic came tonight. Jake was sitting in my lap and I was checking a message board where I have a pic of the blasts on my signature line. Jake points to the picture and says, "mmm pizza". They actually do look a little like pizzas.